What's a friend?

friend/frend/

Noun:	A person whom one knows and with whom one has a bond of mutual affection, typically exclusive of sexual or family relations.
Synonyms:	pal - mate - chum - buddy - comrade - fellow - companion Now..... I've always been a lil weird when it comes to "friends". I have very few who I actually consider friends. I consider myself a loner and I never feel like I quite fit in therefore sometimes I tend to distance myself. I do however consider myself a good friend. There has never been a time when I've had a friend in need that has approached me and I wasn't there to help. Whether it was to give a helping hand or lend a ear and I go hard for ppl when they need me.  A few months ago I went through something pretty difficult and there were people who were really there for me, calling checking up etc, then there were those who sat quietly and avoided me/the situation fully. Now one individual in particular really shocked me especially since she's always going through some bs, stupid trivial shit honestly, but I was always there to give an encouraging word at the very least & I'm certain I've always given her very good advice! She was the first person I called when I needed help and surprise surprise she was out on a date with "some guy" as she referred to him as! Now..... My issue wasn't that she was on a "date" the issue was more so that I reeeeeeeeeeallly needed a friend at that moment and her random date took precedence, however you'd think the following day she'd check up on me? Nope! Not a peep!! I actually reached out to her again the next day and my text was ignored completely! I was floored to say the least!This was someone who I considered a friend and here she is really leaving me hanging when I needed a friend the most. Till this day about 6 mths later I still have yet to hear from her lol! Fair weather friends! I don't need those! I wish her well in her life and future endeavors however that friendship can never be repaired and I want no parts of it. What was so funny about the whole situation was, someone who I barely had contact with, a hello here and there, saw maybe once in yearsss was the one who dropped it all and helped me out that day and words can't explain how grateful I am for that person! She's awesome! the true definition of a friend. Someone you may not see often or speak to all the time but when you need them, they drop everything to lend that helping hand!! Thanks girl! I appreciate you XOXO!!  I just want to end this by saying. If we're "friends" and you're only around when shit is sweet, but when I actually need a friend your back is turned, please take this opportunity to exit stage left!  PEACE