Why did I cut my hair again?

I think the heat of the summer made me lose my mind. That could be the only explanation. No? It had to have. My hair was on it's way to WL, then I decided to get that stupid trim which ruined my life. Ok ok maybe I'm being a bit dramatic but dammit! I miss my fracking hair!! When I first did the cut I loved it! but it's at an awkward stage and is growing out and it looks funny no matter what I do & cutting it again is NOT an option!!!

I've been playing around with weaves, but I was never a weave gal to begin with so they all look weird to me no matter what! Here's a picture of the most recent weave I have

It'a asymmetrical, longer in the front and short in the back, looked good for a few days but now I hate it and want to take it out! I'm so mad at myself & I miss the hairstyle I was running away from. My beloved BUN! Ugh not to mention that the bun is the "in style" hair do this season. Of course that would happen when I'm bald headed right? I'm praying that by summer my hair is at least shoulder length. Not sure if that's possible or not. I know my hair grows fast but I never cut it this short before so I have no idea what to except. Keeping my fingers crossed! You guys do the same xoxo