Why I love Duane Reade

What New Yorker doesn't love Duane Reade? One word to describe why I personally love Duane Reade is "Convenience".  As a native New Yorker who was born and raised in New York City, I have fond memories of shopping at Duane Reade.  I used to love to accompany my mom anytime she had to pick up something at Duane Reade. 
Why?  Simply because mom always let me pick out something for me! 

 

Now as an adult who lives and works in New York City, Duane Reade continues to be  my go to store.  As a woman there have been many moments where for one reason or another I needed to dash across the street, or down the block to Duane Reade. Whether it was to pick up a bottle of nail polish, or polish remover, a new pair of stockings, a comb, some tampons, cold medicine etc. I always find comfort in knowing that no matter where I am I will never be more than a short walk to a Duane Reade store. 

 

I would love to be chosen to be a 2012 Duane Reade blogger simply because I love the store! 

 

New Year, New shoes!

Got a couple pair of boots on NYE. They look way better in person TRUST ME! I can't get a good pic and can't really find a stock photo anywhere. Got a grea deal to. Both for less than $60 holllllurrrr haha! I wore the Brown ones to work and everyone loved them. I attempted to wear the black wedge on New Year's day however I stepped wrong and wound up twisting my ankle so I won't be wearing those for a while. I'm carrying a bit of extra weight and I don't want to kill myself in these.

As far as clothes shopping goes I haven't gotten anything new lately. I'm waiting for summer/spring to go crazy!!

What's a friend?

friend/frend/

Noun:	A person whom one knows and with whom one has a bond of mutual affection, typically exclusive of sexual or family relations.
Synonyms:	pal - mate - chum - buddy - comrade - fellow - companion Now..... I've always been a lil weird when it comes to "friends". I have very few who I actually consider friends. I consider myself a loner and I never feel like I quite fit in therefore sometimes I tend to distance myself. I do however consider myself a good friend. There has never been a time when I've had a friend in need that has approached me and I wasn't there to help. Whether it was to give a helping hand or lend a ear and I go hard for ppl when they need me.  A few months ago I went through something pretty difficult and there were people who were really there for me, calling checking up etc, then there were those who sat quietly and avoided me/the situation fully. Now one individual in particular really shocked me especially since she's always going through some bs, stupid trivial shit honestly, but I was always there to give an encouraging word at the very least & I'm certain I've always given her very good advice! She was the first person I called when I needed help and surprise surprise she was out on a date with "some guy" as she referred to him as! Now..... My issue wasn't that she was on a "date" the issue was more so that I reeeeeeeeeeallly needed a friend at that moment and her random date took precedence, however you'd think the following day she'd check up on me? Nope! Not a peep!! I actually reached out to her again the next day and my text was ignored completely! I was floored to say the least!This was someone who I considered a friend and here she is really leaving me hanging when I needed a friend the most. Till this day about 6 mths later I still have yet to hear from her lol! Fair weather friends! I don't need those! I wish her well in her life and future endeavors however that friendship can never be repaired and I want no parts of it. What was so funny about the whole situation was, someone who I barely had contact with, a hello here and there, saw maybe once in yearsss was the one who dropped it all and helped me out that day and words can't explain how grateful I am for that person! She's awesome! the true definition of a friend. Someone you may not see often or speak to all the time but when you need them, they drop everything to lend that helping hand!! Thanks girl! I appreciate you XOXO!!  I just want to end this by saying. If we're "friends" and you're only around when shit is sweet, but when I actually need a friend your back is turned, please take this opportunity to exit stage left!  PEACE

Why did I cut my hair again?

I think the heat of the summer made me lose my mind. That could be the only explanation. No? It had to have. My hair was on it's way to WL, then I decided to get that stupid trim which ruined my life. Ok ok maybe I'm being a bit dramatic but dammit! I miss my fracking hair!! When I first did the cut I loved it! but it's at an awkward stage and is growing out and it looks funny no matter what I do & cutting it again is NOT an option!!!

I've been playing around with weaves, but I was never a weave gal to begin with so they all look weird to me no matter what! Here's a picture of the most recent weave I have

It'a asymmetrical, longer in the front and short in the back, looked good for a few days but now I hate it and want to take it out! I'm so mad at myself & I miss the hairstyle I was running away from. My beloved BUN! Ugh not to mention that the bun is the "in style" hair do this season. Of course that would happen when I'm bald headed right? I'm praying that by summer my hair is at least shoulder length. Not sure if that's possible or not. I know my hair grows fast but I never cut it this short before so I have no idea what to except. Keeping my fingers crossed! You guys do the same xoxo

What do we think of these?

I love these! What do you think? yay or nay? about to order

Missing in action

First I'd like to start this post off with an email i received from one of my followers. Thought it was hilarious!

Dear Ms. Fabulous,

The suspense is killing me and I can no longer wait patiently for another blog posting! I'm coming to your house and I'm gonna force you to bless me and the rest of your loyal followers with another blog posting otherwise I'm going misery on your ass! LOL

Thanks,

A CYNICAL BLAH BLAH BLOG FOLLOWER

Anywho, how have you been as of lately?




I apologize for disappearing for so long. Work has been consuming allllll of time. I've been so tired, I get home and pass out around 8:30 9pm lol yes grandma status I know lol.

Nothing exciting and new to report on YET.  I did go to Miami earlier this month. The first couple of days was TERRIBLE! It rained, like hurricane type rain all day! I was so annoyed. However the rain soon passed and i had a great time after! Unfortunately i didn't take many pictures.

And thats allllllllll folks!

Today is the day!!

YOU CAN OFFICIALLY SHOP ON ZARA.COM TODAY!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!!! 

What do we think of these bad boys?

They're from topshop and they run for $130. I'm in LOVE!!! 

Why Men Marry Some Women And Not Others

Another interesting read. Very long.

http://bookoutlines.pbworks.com/w/pa...20Not%20Others

Why Men Marry Some Women And Not Others

John T. Molloy (the author of “Dress for Success”)
This book is based on over 3,000 interviews conducted by Molloy and his researchers. They interviewed couples coming out of marriage license bureaus, and then a control group. The results reflect the statistical tendencies of marriage. Many of the lessons are common sense, but what sets this book apart is its specificity and the statistical backup for its assertions.
Editor’s note: One interesting fact is that this book got positive but mixed reviews on Amazon. It seems that the statistical truths that women who are A) over 35, and B) overweight are much less likely to marry were not well-received by those women who fell into those categories.

The Six Basic Guidelines For Women To Get Married

1. Insist on it.
2. If you find yourself in a dead-end relationship, move on.
3. Love yourself first.
4. Commit yourself to the idea of getting married
5. Keep in shape, watch your weight, and take care of your appearance
6. Time is running out—use time wisely in your search for the marrying man

To maximize your chances of marrying, only date the marrying kind:

• Most men will not consider marriage before they reach the age of commitment
  • For 80% of high school graduates, 23
  • For 80% of college graduates, 26
  • For college men, the high-commitment period is 28-33
  • For men who go to graduate school, 30-36
  • After the age of 37-38, the chances that he’ll commit drops dramatically. After 43, it drops even more
  • A 40+ man who has been married before is more likely to remarry than an equivalent bachelor is to marry
• Most men will not contemplate marriage until they have been working and living as independent adults for several years (hence the high-commitment periods)
• Men become likely to marry after they become uncomfortable with the singles scene
  • E.g. They realize that they’ve become the sleazy old guys who hang out at the bars and hit on younger girls
• Men do have a biological clock, based on their desire to be an active father (especially to their sons)
• Misc. negative traits and warning signs
  • Men who see marriage as a financial arrangement in which women have the most to gain
  • Men whose parents divorced when they were young
  • Men who live with their parents
• Other key facts
  • Men often marry women whose religion, politics, values, and socioeconomic status match theirs
  • Men whose friends and siblings are married are more likely to marry
    • 60% of the newly married men reported that they had a friend who had married within the last year.
    • Those men who didn’t have any married male friends were 2-3 times as likely to say that they weren’t ready to marry.
    • The majority of men who had seen their friends get married said that if they met the right woman, they’d think seriously about getting married.
• Avoid stringers, men who string along women but never commit. To filter them out, insist that he commit after six months. Then stick to it, no matter what excuses he gives.
• Consider unpolished jewels, men who are just as nice, intelligent, hard-working, and successful, but lack looks, height, or social skills.
  • a. 88% of men over 50 who were marrying for the first time were marrying divorced women. The women told the researchers that they had already tried the tall, suave, type, and he didn’t make a very good husband.

First impressions are important

• 1. Men are attracted by the physical, but marry character
  • a. Newly engaged men said that what attracted them to their fiancées was how classy, positive, energetic, enthusiastic, and upbeat their future wives were.
    • i. While 68% gave a physical description of their fiancée, only 20% said that what attracted them was how gorgeous and sexy their fiancée was. Over 60% described their personalities, even if the women in question were very beautiful.
  • b. Therefore, be positive!
• 2. All wives are trophy wives—men marry women whom they admire and like to show off (but not for their physical appearance)
• 3. Dressing appropriately sends the message, “I am wife material.” Men marry women they perceive as “situational virgins” who move easily in their world.
  • a. Editor’s note: In other words, don’t dress like a ho. Men see a sexy outfit as an invitation to have sex.
  • b. Most men decide within 10 minutes of meeting a woman if she’s appropriate for marriage, or just for a casual affair.
  • c. Over 80% of men said or bragged that their fiancée was the kind of woman they were proud to introduce to friends and family
  • d. Over 70% of men said that they knew that their future bride was a “nice girl” the minute they met
  • e. Only 7 out of 2,000 men interviewed said that their fiancée was dressed in a very sexy outfit when they met.
• 4. If you want to marry a man who is more attractive than you, go for a very good-looking man because he will actually place less emphasis on looks. Women see their own looks as a gift of nature equal to or superior to brains and talent. In contrast, 67% of very good-looking men think of their looks as a minor asset, and say they would rather be smart, rich, or talented. Do the following:
  • a. Approach him. Very attractive men don’t make passes at women because they don’t have to.
  • b. Let him put you on a pedestal. Don’t treat him any differently than you would another man, just because he’s good-looking.
  • c. Let him see your talents and accomplishments. Very good-looking men often marry women who have qualities they lack—education, professional accomplishment, social standing, and ambition.
  • d. Make demands on him. Advise him to go back to school or get a better job.
• 5. Making a good impression on his family is almost as important as making a good impression on him.
  • a. 5% said that it was their family that had convinced them that the woman was something special
  • b. 30% said that their family’s positive opinion had influenced them

What kind of women get married?

• 1. Women with a large number of female friends are more likely to marry than women with a large number of male friends
  • a. Men don’t go out of their way to introduce their female friends to other men
• 2. If you reach 30 and want to get married, you have to make finding a husband a primary goal. Once your friends start getting married, they are less likely to have an active social life with you. Don’t be the last one off the bus!
• 3. Women who get married, even those with high-powered careers, make getting married a priority that they work at.
• 4. The larger the number of single men and women you work with, the better your chances of marrying
• a. If you work in an industry with few eligible men (e.g. the fashion industry, where most male colleagues are gay), or have other disadvantages, you’ll have to work harder outside of work to overcome them. It’s unfair, but suck it up.
• 5. Women with unrealistic expectations often remain single
  • a. Much of the time, these expectations are imposed by others, who think that the men she brings home aren’t “good enough for her.”
  • b. Give men a second chance—20% of brides to be said that they didn’t like their husband when they first met him.
• 6. Self-confident men are attracted to accomplished, self-assured, and talented women
• 7. Women who waste their time with stringers or men who don’t care for them hurt their chances of marrying
  • a. Women who marry refer to the men who broke up with them as losers. Women who don’t marry often make men who don’t reciprocate their feelings the center of their universe and still speak well of them.
• b. Don’t date married or gay men.
• 8. Women who live with their parents are less likely to marry
• 9. Being slender attracts more men, therefore increasing your chances to marry
• 10. Women who put effort into looking their best are more likely to marry than those who don’t
• 11. However, men find women who are active and don’t spend all of their time primping more attractive
• 12. Women who make an effort to seek out the company of single men are more likely to marry
  • a. Women who marry date more frequently than those who don’t, even it’s Mr. Wrong.
  • b. Women who marry are three times as likely to participate in masculine activities in which they had no real interest.
  • c. Women who marry are twice as likely to have made lifestyle sacrifices (changing jobs or moving) to meet eligible men.
• 13. Women who have active social lives are more likely to marry
• a. Go out on Friday and Saturday, when other single people go out

The stages in a relationship
1: Living up to expectations
Men believe that they can size up a woman in 5 minutes. They’re usually wrong. If a man doesn’t call, it’s because he realizes that he made a mistake.
2: Getting to know you. The following types of women are more like to get asked out on additional dates
a. Women who date more extensively
b. Women who have male friends or brothers (and thus have a better understanding of men)
c. Women who worry less about impressing their dates and more about having fun
d. Women who don’t have sex on the first date
e. Women who object when they don’t approve of the man’s plans
f. Women who are friendly and positive
g. Women who are a good audience and show interest and/or a concern for his welfare
Sidebar: Why men don’t call
As men see it, they don’t need a reason not to call. They do need a reason to call.
The woman gets too serious too soon
The woman is not as positive as they had thought.
90% of men find catty remarks a turnoff
3: Needs and lifestyles
This stage is about separating attraction from compatibility.
If your lifestyles aren’t compatible, end the relationship as quickly and painlessly as possible
4: Steady dating (range: 3 weeks to 3 months)
Men don’t typically think of themselves as dating until after 4-6 dates
Women typically think of themselves as dating after 2-3 dates, hence the problem
The primary reason men drop women during the first month or two is that the women come on too strong, too soon.
50% of men have broken up with a woman because she got serious prematurely
Never speak of marriage, children, or your future together for the first 6 dates.
5: Romancing the woman
Men are always trying to please the women they like. Just relax and enjoy your stay on the pedestal (because it’s likely to be brief).
6: Getting comfortable (3 months+). This is the stage where the couple stop feeling they have to be on their best behavior and start being themselves.
The fact that your man doesn’t bring you roses, but instead plops on your couch to watch TV and takes you for granted is actually a natural stage and the hallmark of almost all serious relationships—not a deal-killer.
But, don’t be a doormat. If you don’t complain, or, even worse, try to do everything for him, it will make him think you are just there for his convenience.
Women who withhold doing household chores usually get more respect from men
The women who insist on being treated well are 2x as likely to end up marrying their man. No one marries a servant.
Insist on being monogamous
7: Committed couplehood (range: 6 months to 1 year; 73% said that within 9 months, their partner had become the center of their lives).
Successful couples:
Are monogamous
Put their partners interests above their friends and family
If his family member makes a negative comment about you, he should defend you. 79% of marrying men said that they came to their financees’ defense.
Hang out together without any particular plans. When just being together, you are a successful couple.
8: Premarital couplehood.
Committed couples are:
Openly affectionate, and make sacrifices for each other
Become confidants. More than 90% of couples who get married are.
But remember that men are sensitive to criticisms of their family, and men don’t share their feelings easily
9: The proposal stage
Most men propose after going out with a woman for 18 months.
If at the end of 22 months, a man has not proposed, the chances that he will start to diminish.
For 3.5 years, the chances diminish gradually. After that, it plunges. After 7 years, your chances are virtually zero.
Speaking of Marriage
1. Men who discuss marriage are more likely to propose
2. If you want to discuss marriage, you’re going to have to bring the subject up, because many men never will
3. 73% of marrying women said that they put pressure on their man to propose
4. If a woman is convinced that marriage is essential to her happiness, she is more likely to marry.
a. If a man is convinced that being married is essential to a woman’s happiness, he is more likely to propose
5. When a man who has been dating a woman for months says he hasn’t thought of marriage, he’s probably just being honest. Men don’t think about these things.
a. 1/3 of husbands who had said no at first had forgotten that they did so
b. 2/3 remembered, but most thought it wasn’t a big deal.
c. When told that saying this upset their wives, the men generally responded, “What did she want me to do, lie to her?”
d. More than 90% of men who said they weren’t ready didn’t think the answer was a rejection, just a fact.
e. The best response is, “Maybe it’s time for you to think about it.”
f. Statistically, this is actually one of the most encouraging answers a woman can receive; many of these men proposed within 4 months.
6. Men don’t get subtle hints—a woman has to discuss marriage directly and, to make sure he gets the point, ask follow-up questions.
7. When a man says he isn’t ready, it usually doesn’t mean he will never marry.
Often, it’s because they don’t have enough money.
8. Men rarely respond positively when challenged.
a. Over 50% of men say that when presented with a choice, “Marry me or get lost,” they chose to get lost.
b. Over 50% of men say that when a woman walks out, they let her go.
c. Instead, come back to the subject later. Send the message, “I love you, but I need marriage.” Don’t let them off the hook.
i. “How could you do this to me? You hurt me.”
ii. “The reason I’m so hurt is that I love you.”
Marrying after 40
1. The best places to meet eligible men are clubs and groups based on common interests. Join organization that have single men as members.
a. 21% of engaged women over 40 said that they had met their fiancée at an athletic club
b. Sports clubs that focus on activities that attract singles (trips, bicycling) are best
c. Next best are tennis, and golf.
d. Third come professional or social organizations that are overwhelmingly male, like engineering associations or collectors of sports memorabilia.
e. Fourth come organizations that have a singles scene, or sponsor events that give singles a chance to socialize with other club members.
f. Dances, picnics, and charity golf or tennis tournaments are also a good place to meet men.
2. Have an active social life
a. Women who go out twice a week, even just to dine with other women or do volunteer work, are 3x as likely to marry than those who don’t go out.
b. Going out three times a week boosts your chances even further.
c. However, going out more than 5 nights a week decreases your chances.
3. Though men often date women who are much younger, they usually marry someone close to their own age.
4. The most common reason men over 40 were attracted to their fiancées was that they took good care of themselves. So stay in shape!
5. When asked what attracted them to their fiancées, younger men cite virtue, talent, or accomplishments. 62% of men over forty cited “niceness” (congeniality, agreeableness, a relaxed, low-maintenance attitude, and acts of kindness).
6. Older men may be in a hurry to get married; delay them, don’t dump them, if you aren’t ready yet.
7. Men who attend religious services are more likely to marry.
Divorced men, widowers, and single fathers
1. Young widowers without children are the most marriageable men on earth
2. Single fathers with young children have little or no energy for a social life
3. Most widowers are not ready for a relationship until 2 years after their wife passed away
4. Men whose wives died of lingering or painful illnesses are less likely to remarry.
5. The more amicable a man’s divorce, the more likely he is to remarry 6. The younger a man is, the more likely he is to remarry

Dating In a City of Sluts

Came across this article on a forum I frequent and thought it was a GREAT read!

Since I left my husband I have been unable to do a number of things -- the most frustrating lost skill is the ability to date. After nine years in a committed relationship, I have extreme difficulty navigating the nuanced dance that is dating. I have learned I can't be too direct, eager, needy, desperate, clingy, emotional, commitment pressuring, or baby daddy seeking. I also have to avoid looking cold, aloof, bitchy, mean, shallow, negative or distant. And of course I can't even talk about my ex, even if the past nine years of my life was living and working with him! Then there are the crazy games of when to text, email or call, when to answer immediately, when to act interested or disinterested and when to completely blow them off. As a person who is by nature very direct and to the point, dating is a mystery trapped in a puzzle, tucked in a fireproof safe thrown down a mineshaft. I just can't figure it out. But the most distressing behavior is the casual sex hook-up mating habits that dominate New York City, a city that I adore and call my home. I am a committed relationship type of gal. I make no illusions to being anything but this, and I do not judge others with different lifestyles. If a polyamorous life of multiple lovers or a string of emotionally detached one-night stands with perfect strangers is satisfying to a person, then they should be doing exactly that. But I know there are others like me that aren't wired this way, and seek something with some level of greater commitment both emotionally and sexually. I have a myriad of friends who complain all the time: "I am not slutty enough for New York." And I can relate. I have made failed attempts of hooking up with partners for something casual, but every time the results have been disastrous. For the most part I am let down by an experience that was supposed to be fun, and which ends up making my life more complicated. I had one man who kept calling me for months, another who rudely told me about his other women -- and yes there is a polite way to handle this -- and yet another who had a mild breakdown in my apartment about how he couldn't handle the "gray area". So I realized, I am not this person, I need to be true to myself so I went back to my committed relationship roots. But no matter how much I keep trying to go for a relationship, the hook-up scenario keeps rearing its ugly head. I might start talking to a guy only to see him leave with a woman who has made it perfectly clear that a hook-up is about to happen. A situation I like to call survival of the sluttiest. It is just sort of expected by many that you start the physical part of the relationship first, and then see if either partner wants to continue after the fact, sort of a try before you buy situation. Sex before emotional attachment, sex before any form of relationship, sex before everything. • The guy will call or text when he wants to hookup but that is about it. • You are supposed to be on call to wait for the opportunity to see him • Don't reveal too much about yourself, but listen to him complain • Don't expect commitment, or exclusivity • Don't expect any emotional bonding • Don't expect much effort on his part to impress you • Don't expect him to make you feel important in his life Not exactly what I call fun, but again everyone is different and for some people this situation is ideal. What I find frustrating is that if you really want to get to know a guy first before having sex with him, it seems like there is no end to the women who will jump into bed with them. And this isn't to say that only men do this, as women engage in the same behavior as do people of all sexual orientations and gender identifications. I didn't think that in order to try to have a healthy sustained relationship with a person I am supposed to have sex with them hours or even minutes after meeting them. It seems more like long-term relationship suicide. I know there a plenty of men and women who are frustrated like myself out there. But what are we supposed to do when everyone around us seems to be whoring it up? And if people can so easily get no-strings attached sex, and then never see the person again if they choose, why would they try for anything else? There are no real rules with relationships and sometimes sleeping with a stranger leads to years of coupled bliss, but it is rare when that happens. And in a city where pretty much anyone can become anonymous overnight, promiscuous behavior dominates. How did this become the ideal lifestyle? And is there a place for people like myself who want something more traditional? I don't want to move, but I am really getting tired of being alone.

broken blog

apparently my blog is broken :-/ none of my photos are showing, needless to say i'm depressed! Back to square one sigh! this freakin sux! please bear with me!

Karma

INSTAGRAM!!!!!

I just started using Instagram but I love it! I love taking pics and I love looking at pics so this is like the best app ever! :-D

There are 5 things in life you can not recover

There are 5 things in life you can not recover: A stone...after it's thrown. A word...after it is said. An occasion...after it's missed. The time...after it's gone. A person...after they die. Life is short. Break the rules. Forgive quickly. Kiss slowly. Love truly. Laugh uncontrollably. And never regret anything that made you smile. Enjoy life.

Catching up

Hey guys! I have not had much time to blog lately. I apologize! Over the last few months things got crazy! So many changes, both good and bad. I'm pretty certain that in a few months I'll have a whole lot more time to sit and think about things to write. I think during the summer months there are just too many things to do and I lose track of time. 


On the bright side I'll probably have way more shopping/ haul  posts/videos since a new season will be approaching, however probably won't have many ootd's as i may be moving and may not have my balcony anymore  ::insert sad face here::  it's all good though. I may be leaving nyc all together and going over to Jersey. I've been looking at apartments out there and they are so much nicer, bigger and cheaper than nyc! I'm going to have to invest in a better car with less miles on it but I don't mind that at all. Who doesn't want a shiny new car?? lol! 


Work is great! No complaints there at all. My boss is really cool and laid back which I love! I still haven't met all of my coworkers but the few who I have gotten to speak with are pretty cool. I've also recently reconnected with many friends from the past which is also really cool. I missed them ;-)

Have a vacation coming up in October which I can't wait for. Going to South beach. Not certain with who yet lol as many friends say they are going, but not many have made the steps twds booking, however, I'm confident I will be there! I have started getting the ball rolling on that. Need to hit all the stores in the upcoming weeks as the summer stuff will be on clearance which means I can prob get some real cute stuff for CHEAP! I'm suuuper excited~! I totally deserve this vaca! I need to be on a beach with sun, my friends, a slushy adult beverage and possibly a big fat cuban cigar :-) . I also need to look into planning an exotic get away early next year. I need to make up for lost time! Last yr I was saving to move and all sorts of things. I now have all the home furnishings I could possibly need and now I need to enjoy life! 

I need to get back to work! I'll be back soon with an OOTD possibly this weekend! In the mean time if you guys have any questions, outfits you'd like ot see me put together etc feel free to drop me a line!

Love ya all!

“Jealousy is the art of counting someone else's blessings instead of your own”. - Stolen from My friend Nicole

OOTN & Hookah

Last night I went to a hookah lounge with friends. It was a real chill vibe & enjoyed myself even though we were there for a very brief time.

Wearing:

crop top from Strawberry

leggings from Strawberry

animal print Sam Edelman shoes

Food for thought

There's always some truth behind: Just kidding, Knowledge behind: I don't know, Emotion behind: I don't care & Pain behind: It's okay. - unknown